The heart-rending and inspiring novel from the critically acclaimed author of NOT IF I SEE YOU FIRST. How can you have a future if you cant accept your past? Mel Hannigan doesnt have it easy. Mourning the death of her firework of a brother, facing the loss of three friendships that used to mean everything to her and struggling to deal with a condition that even her closest friends dont know about. To protect herself and everyone else, Mel tries to lock away her heart, to live quietly without pain but also without hope. Until the plight of an old friend, and meeting someone new, shows her that the risk is worth taking, that opening up to life and who you really are is what can make everything glorious And that maybe Mel can discover a tragic kind of wonderful of her very own. A beautiful, captivating story about living with mental illness, and loving even with a broken heart.

 

 

This book has been graded for interest at 13 years.

There are 352 pages in this book.

It is aimed at Young Adult readers. The term Young Adult (YA) is used for books which have the following characteristics: (1) aimed at ages 12-18 years, US grades 7-12, UK school years 8-15, (2) around 50-75k words long, (3) main character is aged 12-18 years, (4) topics include self-reflection, internal conflict vs external, analyzing life and its meaning, (5) point of view is often in the first person, and (6) swearing, violence, romance and sexuality are allowed.

This book was published in 2017 by HarperCollins Publishers .

Novelist Eric Lindstrom is a veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. His writing has been nominated for a BAFTA award for Best Videogame Screenplay in Tomb Raider: Legend, and a WGA award for Best Writing in a Videogame for Tomb Raider: Underworld. Not If I See You First was his debut novel.